Friday, November 3, 2023

Day 4

Not really anything to report today. It was a good day. Wore a new dress and actually felt good about how I looked. Not too much nitpicking at my insecurities. ;) 

The intrusive thoughts were tame today...which is REALLY surprising since it was a library day and I had to socialize whether I wanted to or not. Socializing usually increases the intrusive thoughts and overthinking. I guess everyone's are different. Mine aren't busy thinking of ways my family could die, like some people's. Instead, mine worry over social interactions and relationships. For example: 

Would this person think this meme is funny? Have I already sent them too many things today? Am I driving them nuts?

-Or-

Should I have said that to that person? That was kind of a weird thing to say, wasn't it? They probably think I'm a huge weirdo now if they didn't already...which is fair because I AM. Dang it! I should have said this instead when we were talking about that one thing. Duh!

That was my brain before the meds. Super fun. Now, I don't have those thoughts (much) and don't really give a shit and it's great. 

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