Having kind of a rough day. My moods have been kind of off the past few days. Was kind of sad/down Sunday. Which is the normal day of the week for that, though I at least wasn't dwelling on John going back to work. That's the reason I'm usually in a mood on Sundays. Yesterday, I was in kind of a pissy mood in the morning. Today, the negative thoughts are returning. (Temporarily, hopefully.) Just feeling lonely. You know, the usual when I'm by myself at night.
I keep joking but not that I "just" need a single friend who can hang out on whims, come over for no reason other than to keep me company. Then I realized earlier that it's friendships like I had in school that I'm looking for. But that's not the way the world works, is it? Not as an adult. You can't have that kind of friendship. People are busy, have to tend to their own families, etc etc. We don't have time or energy for each other any more. And thinking about all of this is pretty sad and depressing, really. Something you can never get back or have again. Sigh...
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